poisonedgrace: (red X)
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I'm feeling the strange and stinging need to write something beautiful for you today.
And I don't know why.

I say this, even though no one will read it. 

The ones I find most beautiful sit, compacted upon the staggering weight of their own silence.
Yet, should I write about poop, indigestion, lolspeak, or other assorted base foolery, then stop the presses, because there's a line waiting to weigh in.

I'm not sure what that says about the world.

I want to tell you about worlds that never were, but could be.  I want to tell you how time is what we make of it, and how even our misery is beautiful because it's ours and our joy couldn't exist with out it.  I want to tell you about jogging around the block, and past the hidden secret of the church basement.  I want to tell you about running through the mall with the annoying parrot.  I want to tell you about sliding through levels and levels only to reach the ground again.  I want to tell you how when I made it back around the block, 4 months had passed for everyone but me.

But I wont.  Because I can't do anything any justice.  I can't make anything quite beautiful enough today.

I want to take you all under my broken wing.  I want to tell you it will all be OK, and everything will work out for the best.  But I don't have it in me to deceive you that way.  I'm not that much of a liar.  The thing is...  "It won't be alright, despite what they say."  And that, is the truth.  But that, also, is beautiful.  Irrevocably beautiful, because we are all, all of us, in it together.  To one degree or another. 

And it doesn't matter.  Because we are all going to die.  "We die one after the other Over and over"  You might not even see it, but this is beautiful too.

The reason it is beautiful, is because it makes what we actually HAVE here all the more precious.  Your LIFE.  Your TIME.  Your interactions with others.  Your choices, your decisions, your actions.  Those things define you.  They are your legacy.  Why would you spend the little time you have wanting to escape from the little time you have?  What a cold and fruitless life. 

Good or bad, live it fully.  Full steam ahead.  Why close it off or end it sooner?  That is a given, that WILL happen.  Spend the time you have exploring, singing, marveling at the beautiful and hideous things around you.  You will lose it all swiftly enough without hurling it from you even sooner.

Don't waste it with any method of sleeping through it all.  Don't waste it by trying to hold other people down and live their life for them (although more often than not, the holder-downers are trying to prevent it, not do it for).  Pointless struggle of vanity.  It's so obviously so.  You make a mockery out of all existence.

Share your ideas.  Share your thoughts and dreams and glory and sadness.  Your frustrations, your madness.  Share your music, your stories, yourself.  BECAUSE:  You are going to die.

Let me repeat that, because I am not sure that you have really understood it:
YOU ARE GOING TO DIE

Not "maybe".  Not "possibly".  Not "if". No "or". And no "but,".

So why spend what minuscule amount of time you're granted (and remember that even your small amount of time may be revoked at any moment due to [but not limited to]  Disease, Violence, Accident, Fate, Tillikum, or many other assorted issues) in a frantic scramble of making yourself miserable?  Or at least of like... being miserable over making yourself miserable.  Just enjoy that part too, because it'll be gone along with everything else.  This is all temporary!  All of it!

I know how frustrating it can be when something isn't going your way.  Or when like... nothing is.  I know how it is when someone (be it an individual person [your BF / Husband for instance] or a group of people [pick one, Homosexuals? Teabaggers? Muslims? Catholics?] just is not behaving in a way that you desire them to.  I constantly see the behaviour power struggle in human relationships and politics.  But really?  You know what?  You're gonna die, dude!  And so is that other person (or group of people as the case may be). 

And you know what else?  What in the world really seems THAT important once you truly accept that?  Does it really matter that Billy-Bob Boyfriend won't 'commit' and marry you?  If you enjoy being with him, then shut up and be with him.  If it's that big a deal, then replace him with someone who behaves in a way that better meshes with your ideals.  Because again, he's gonna die!  So are you!  It's beautiful that way.

I can see that certain political issues can matter more, because things like that, and those decisions and legacies can extend long past our lifetimes and affect countless people.  I can see where these things differ, and while yes, I AM simplifying this entire topic of "LIFE" to some degree, I am doing to to counterpoint how overwrought and needlessly complicated you're making it.  

But for example...  Seriously?  Who the fuck cares if gay folks get married?  Any sort of 'sanctity' involved in the idea of marriage ended when the Kings of England were chopping their wives heads off so they could get a new wife.  It ended when Divorce was instituted.  It ended when more than 5 or 10% of marriages ended in divorce.  You "religious" folks need to understand the difference between your own religious ceremonies and practices versus a legal, social and governmental contract.  I could rant about this, and get totally off topic, but instead I'm touching it very briefly, just to say:

If gay people are allowed to get married, or if they aren't... Guess what?  Either way... YOU ARE STILL GOING TO DIE!  Why don't you worry about your life before you're worried about what the hell people whom you will NEVER meet are doing?

I'm sure there are much more important things to worry about anyhow.  Like who got kicked off of 'American Singing Show' or what the fuck ever 'reality' piece of shit you humans are wallowing in this week.  Also, didn't Sally Brenda Nancy Smith Jones Johnson post a picture with a vague hint of cleavage on FaceSpace?  And OMG didn't her status change to 'is single' recently as well?!?!

*sigh*

Deaf ears, deaf ears.


This didn't end up being very beautiful at all, and I'm sorry for that.  You'll just have to accept my poorly written but well intended rambling nonsense.

Or not.  <3




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poisonedgrace: (red X)
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I'm feeling the strange and stinging need to write something beautiful for you today.
And I don't know why.

I say this, even though no one will read it. 

The ones I find most beautiful sit, compacted upon the staggering weight of their own silence.
Yet, should I write about poop, indigestion, lolspeak, or other assorted base foolery, then stop the presses, because there's a line waiting to weigh in.

I'm not sure what that says about the world.

I want to tell you about worlds that never were, but could be.  I want to tell you how time is what we make of it, and how even our misery is beautiful because it's ours and our joy couldn't exist with out it.  I want to tell you about jogging around the block, and past the hidden secret of the church basement.  I want to tell you about running through the mall with the annoying parrot.  I want to tell you about sliding through levels and levels only to reach the ground again.  I want to tell you how when I made it back around the block, 4 months had passed for everyone but me.

But I wont.  Because I can't do anything any justice.  I can't make anything quite beautiful enough today.

I want to take you all under my broken wing.  I want to tell you it will all be OK, and everything will work out for the best.  But I don't have it in me to deceive you that way.  I'm not that much of a liar.  The thing is...  "It won't be alright, despite what they say."  And that, is the truth.  But that, also, is beautiful.  Irrevocably beautiful, because we are all, all of us, in it together.  To one degree or another. 

And it doesn't matter.  Because we are all going to die.  "We die one after the other Over and over"  You might not even see it, but this is beautiful too.

The reason it is beautiful, is because it makes what we actually HAVE here all the more precious.  Your LIFE.  Your TIME.  Your interactions with others.  Your choices, your decisions, your actions.  Those things define you.  They are your legacy.  Why would you spend the little time you have wanting to escape from the little time you have?  What a cold and fruitless life. 

Good or bad, live it fully.  Full steam ahead.  Why close it off or end it sooner?  That is a given, that WILL happen.  Spend the time you have exploring, singing, marveling at the beautiful and hideous things around you.  You will lose it all swiftly enough without hurling it from you even sooner.

Don't waste it with any method of sleeping through it all.  Don't waste it by trying to hold other people down and live their life for them (although more often than not, the holder-downers are trying to prevent it, not do it for).  Pointless struggle of vanity.  It's so obviously so.  You make a mockery out of all existence.

Share your ideas.  Share your thoughts and dreams and glory and sadness.  Your frustrations, your madness.  Share your music, your stories, yourself.  BECAUSE:  You are going to die.

Let me repeat that, because I am not sure that you have really understood it:
YOU ARE GOING TO DIE

Not "maybe".  Not "possibly".  Not "if". No "or". And no "but,".

So why spend what minuscule amount of time you're granted (and remember that even your small amount of time may be revoked at any moment due to [but not limited to]  Disease, Violence, Accident, Fate, Tillikum, or many other assorted issues) in a frantic scramble of making yourself miserable?  Or at least of like... being miserable over making yourself miserable.  Just enjoy that part too, because it'll be gone along with everything else.  This is all temporary!  All of it!

I know how frustrating it can be when something isn't going your way.  Or when like... nothing is.  I know how it is when someone (be it an individual person [your BF / Husband for instance] or a group of people [pick one, Homosexuals? Teabaggers? Muslims? Catholics?] just is not behaving in a way that you desire them to.  I constantly see the behaviour power struggle in human relationships and politics.  But really?  You know what?  You're gonna die, dude!  And so is that other person (or group of people as the case may be). 

And you know what else?  What in the world really seems THAT important once you truly accept that?  Does it really matter that Billy-Bob Boyfriend won't 'commit' and marry you?  If you enjoy being with him, then shut up and be with him.  If it's that big a deal, then replace him with someone who behaves in a way that better meshes with your ideals.  Because again, he's gonna die!  So are you!  It's beautiful that way.

I can see that certain political issues can matter more, because things like that, and those decisions and legacies can extend long past our lifetimes and affect countless people.  I can see where these things differ, and while yes, I AM simplifying this entire topic of "LIFE" to some degree, I am doing to to counterpoint how overwrought and needlessly complicated you're making it.  

But for example...  Seriously?  Who the fuck cares if gay folks get married?  Any sort of 'sanctity' involved in the idea of marriage ended when the Kings of England were chopping their wives heads off so they could get a new wife.  It ended when Divorce was instituted.  It ended when more than 5 or 10% of marriages ended in divorce.  You "religious" folks need to understand the difference between your own religious ceremonies and practices versus a legal, social and governmental contract.  I could rant about this, and get totally off topic, but instead I'm touching it very briefly, just to say:

If gay people are allowed to get married, or if they aren't... Guess what?  Either way... YOU ARE STILL GOING TO DIE!  Why don't you worry about your life before you're worried about what the hell people whom you will NEVER meet are doing?

I'm sure there are much more important things to worry about anyhow.  Like who got kicked off of 'American Singing Show' or what the fuck ever 'reality' piece of shit you humans are wallowing in this week.  Also, didn't Sally Brenda Nancy Smith Jones Johnson post a picture with a vague hint of cleavage on FaceSpace?  And OMG didn't her status change to 'is single' recently as well?!?!

*sigh*

Deaf ears, deaf ears.


This didn't end up being very beautiful at all, and I'm sorry for that.  You'll just have to accept my poorly written but well intended rambling nonsense.

Or not.  <3




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poisonedgrace: (alone)
In a weird sort of mood this morning. Undefinable. But I have a weird stabbing pain in my head, and maybe it's making me crazy enough to do this:

So I'm offering you Maps & Legends

Hey, I'll even answer questions. Maybe there's something to be said for it.

A Quick guide (if I forgot anything, ask & I'll add it)

Text appearing in (this shade of) Blue typically denotes a dream. Or a Dream (yes there's a difference. If you don't know the difference, that's something I can answer I suppose, but I don't want to bore both of you all if it's old obvious news.).

Text in this shade of Grey is typically used for quotation. Often times it'll be lyrics or literature. Things Written By Others. These things are always also in Italics, thus the look of this line.

Sometimes text is colour coded towards a specific audience. This Purple used to be you & I think you were once this one. Once this nauseating shade of Pink was you (maybe because I really don't like that colour at ALL.) You were once Red, but now you're Dead & Red can be any number of things but we'll talk about that later. I think another shade of pink stood for you a few times. You once had a light blue. I have been coloured green (Green is the colour of my God) more often than not, as it's the default colour of most of my web sites. But none of these are set in stone, as they're usually more about a reflection of a certain nuance of interaction or or just to make something stand out. The whole world is RAINBOWs, so these change often and randomly.

Bold, Underline, Strike Through, and Italics can be just for tonal emphasis, although "Italics with quotes" or colour is always a quotation.

The hidden text: FYI, yes it always spells out something. Yes, it always means something. The colours are generally selected simply for aesthetics, but rarely they may refelct mood or target. Sometimes if it's more than one separate message sharing space, then different colours may just denote different message strings, and I might just start to run out of easy to detect colours. I tend to like to use red because it's a good contrasting colour. I also like that Halloween Orange colour. Those are definitely easy to see.

Sometimes things are hidden in font size or shape as well. Sometimes things are hidden black on black or white on white fonts, so that you can only find it by highlighting the correct area. Those ones are hidden from you the best, but also the most rare and very few people have ever found them. But sometimes that's what it's about.

I am sure that there are a million other confusions, questions, & points of clarification that I could address, but I don't have any more coming to mind right off my head, because... well this IS all my head, so I can't really know what you know & what you don't...

So, ask away. If I stay in this mood, I'll be willing to answer 99% of your questions as straight forwardly as possible, but I reserve the right to not answer some things anyhow LOL ;)
poisonedgrace: (alone)
In a weird sort of mood this morning. Undefinable. But I have a weird stabbing pain in my head, and maybe it's making me crazy enough to do this:

So I'm offering you Maps & Legends

Hey, I'll even answer questions. Maybe there's something to be said for it.

A Quick guide (if I forgot anything, ask & I'll add it)

Text appearing in (this shade of) Blue typically denotes a dream. Or a Dream (yes there's a difference. If you don't know the difference, that's something I can answer I suppose, but I don't want to bore both of you all if it's old obvious news.).

Text in this shade of Grey is typically used for quotation. Often times it'll be lyrics or literature. Things Written By Others. These things are always also in Italics, thus the look of this line.

Sometimes text is colour coded towards a specific audience. This Purple used to be you & I think you were once this one. Once this nauseating shade of Pink was you (maybe because I really don't like that colour at ALL.) You were once Red, but now you're Dead & Red can be any number of things but we'll talk about that later. I think another shade of pink stood for you a few times. You once had a light blue. I have been coloured green (Green is the colour of my God) more often than not, as it's the default colour of most of my web sites. But none of these are set in stone, as they're usually more about a reflection of a certain nuance of interaction or or just to make something stand out. The whole world is RAINBOWs, so these change often and randomly.

Bold, Underline, Strike Through, and Italics can be just for tonal emphasis, although "Italics with quotes" or colour is always a quotation.

The hidden text: FYI, yes it always spells out something. Yes, it always means something. The colours are generally selected simply for aesthetics, but rarely they may refelct mood or target. Sometimes if it's more than one separate message sharing space, then different colours may just denote different message strings, and I might just start to run out of easy to detect colours. I tend to like to use red because it's a good contrasting colour. I also like that Halloween Orange colour. Those are definitely easy to see.

Sometimes things are hidden in font size or shape as well. Sometimes things are hidden black on black or white on white fonts, so that you can only find it by highlighting the correct area. Those ones are hidden from you the best, but also the most rare and very few people have ever found them. But sometimes that's what it's about.

I am sure that there are a million other confusions, questions, & points of clarification that I could address, but I don't have any more coming to mind right off my head, because... well this IS all my head, so I can't really know what you know & what you don't...

So, ask away. If I stay in this mood, I'll be willing to answer 99% of your questions as straight forwardly as possible, but I reserve the right to not answer some things anyhow LOL ;)
poisonedgrace: (alone)


        All things come to pass.  Sometimes you can see them coming from afar like a mountain on the horizon.  Other times, they come suddenly like a deep hole in the trail at night.  Most people are never even ready when they finally get to the mountains, much less for the unexpected.

We'll keep this on our own terms.  You all should know what and whom I am talking about here.

Unfortunately, we seem to live in a culture of "guilty until proven innocent".  We mostly secretly know, and very sadly, have grown to accept that.  It gets worse.  After having culturally accepted that dirty secret, we slid into an even worse thing.  The new secret is "once accused, never truly innocent, even after it has been proven".  That's the one no-one wants to talk about these days.  Guilt is weighed by opinion, "lulz", and the media.  'Fact' dropped out of the race a while back.  Apparently, much like 'Truth', he was old, tired and no longer needed for modern society.

All it EVER takes is being thought guilty of being "different" or "weird".  That's enough to make you guilty of any and everything that anyone decides to henceforth accuse you of.  Maybe it's obvious that it's just another Highschool Jock calling you a 'faggot', but hey!  You have green hair, so It has to be true, right?  Maybe it's just some tired shitty old american family trying to hustle money out of you because they think that you're an easy mark and have millions to spare?  Well, whatever they say must be right, because AGAIN with the weird!

One of the truly sad things is that a lot of you out there who get in on the whole Witch Hunt mentality have also been victimized by it.  Did you like it when the High School Jocks called you a faggot?  Did you enjoy being called a Dope Head because your hair was too long?  Because your hair was the wrong colour?  Maybe you moved there from another country.  Maybe you were the only girl there wearing all black.  Maybe you were an overweight kid.  Did you enjoy being persecuted because your skin was the wrong colour?  Maybe you played D&D or read Star Wars books.  Maybe your family didn't have as much money as most everyone else and you didn't have decent clothes or lunch money.  What if you just didn't somehow fit into the 'normal' sexual niche or gender role?  Does that justify being abused and slandered?  Did you get beat up over any of it?  Purposefully hit by a car?  Threatened with deadly weapons on a daily basis?  Because I did.  All those things.

Being Different or Weird can happen in a whole variety of ways.  From how we look, to simple things about how we act, our personalities, it's just who we ARE.  Unless you were a huge fan of having it done to you, and think persecuting and demeaning people is upstanding and correct, then why on earth would you turn around and do it to others?  Do you really think that just because a girl has blue hair that she's a drugged up slut? 

Just going with the flow?  The choice of champions, right there!  Don't you see that 'the flow' is just one fucking hateful High School Jock point a finger, and everyone else being afraid that they're next, so they point too?
Even if you are 'normal' what if it were your very own daughter?  Your sister or little brother?  Do you think they deserve the judgement, wrath and scorn of the world at large, even though they have never been proven guilty of any wrongdoing at all?

It's bad enough to buy into that bullshit while someone is alive, feeding into a situation that can rob someone of their sanity, but to continue it or even ramp it up in the case of their demise?  Well aren't you just a really great person?

I've been called 'faggot' and 'stoner' and a million other names hundreds of thousands of times in my life, by hundreds of different people.  I've been called a lot worse.  I've had a lot worse done to me.  I've been in the grocery store shopping for food and had mothers actually put their hand over their childrens eyes when I walked past.  Instilling their judgemental evil in their spawn (ant ehey think that I am the monster in that situation?).  All because I was 'weird' or 'different'.  It has been enough people in my life to make a general concensus.  So does that make it true?  Am I those things because enough people believed it?  None of these accusations were ever proven.  But it didn't matter.  Sound familiar?  Which side of this cultural issue are you on anyhow?  Are you making it better or worse?  Are you taking a stance to debunk and improve it?

I think I have my line drawn firmly.  Just go ahead and get out of my life and don't wave goodbye if you're on the other side of it.  I do not need or want anything to do with you if you're one of them.

Also, Joseph McCarthy called.  He wanted to tell you that Goody Proctor is a witch!
But it's ok because Great American Hero, Cotton Mather is meeting you after tonights Football Game.  You can all head out and burn some crosses in weirdos lawns across the nation.

Or maybe if you want to really pretend to give a shit about things, why don't you instead harass people who have actually been PROVEN criminals.  People who are guilty of more than being Different.  People whom you can actually observe to do terrible things.  Trust me, there are plenty of people out there fitting the bill.  Maybe it's just easier to take the lowest denominator rather than stand up for justice, huh?  Because all this shit I am writing about?  You are no better than the 'God Hates Fags' people. 



And then there's you.  This whole thing... I've seen it my whole life, written about it before, but this time, it's for you.  Well...  You were a rare one.  Much like me, you simply were not from here.  You were also looking for Home.  You taught me something important.  Many many years ago.  I have never forgotten it.  You taught me that no amount of money can buy Home.  No amount of fame of 'mainstream success / acceptance' can earn you Home.  We'll always be Weird and Different.  We'll always be Searching.  You also taught me, through your errors, that maybe somehow, the answer can be found in Love.  In letting people inside, in spite of the pain and fear.  I think that's one thing you never managed to be able to do.  Thank you for sharing what you had with us while you could.

I'm sorry that the Witch Hunt made you crazy(/er).
I hope you're Home now.




poisonedgrace: (alone)


        All things come to pass.  Sometimes you can see them coming from afar like a mountain on the horizon.  Other times, they come suddenly like a deep hole in the trail at night.  Most people are never even ready when they finally get to the mountains, much less for the unexpected.

We'll keep this on our own terms.  You all should know what and whom I am talking about here.

Unfortunately, we seem to live in a culture of "guilty until proven innocent".  We mostly secretly know, and very sadly, have grown to accept that.  It gets worse.  After having culturally accepted that dirty secret, we slid into an even worse thing.  The new secret is "once accused, never truly innocent, even after it has been proven".  That's the one no-one wants to talk about these days.  Guilt is weighed by opinion, "lulz", and the media.  'Fact' dropped out of the race a while back.  Apparently, much like 'Truth', he was old, tired and no longer needed for modern society.

All it EVER takes is being thought guilty of being "different" or "weird".  That's enough to make you guilty of any and everything that anyone decides to henceforth accuse you of.  Maybe it's obvious that it's just another Highschool Jock calling you a 'faggot', but hey!  You have green hair, so It has to be true, right?  Maybe it's just some tired shitty old american family trying to hustle money out of you because they think that you're an easy mark and have millions to spare?  Well, whatever they say must be right, because AGAIN with the weird!

One of the truly sad things is that a lot of you out there who get in on the whole Witch Hunt mentality have also been victimized by it.  Did you like it when the High School Jocks called you a faggot?  Did you enjoy being called a Dope Head because your hair was too long?  Because your hair was the wrong colour?  Maybe you moved there from another country.  Maybe you were the only girl there wearing all black.  Maybe you were an overweight kid.  Did you enjoy being persecuted because your skin was the wrong colour?  Maybe you played D&D or read Star Wars books.  Maybe your family didn't have as much money as most everyone else and you didn't have decent clothes or lunch money.  What if you just didn't somehow fit into the 'normal' sexual niche or gender role?  Does that justify being abused and slandered?  Did you get beat up over any of it?  Purposefully hit by a car?  Threatened with deadly weapons on a daily basis?  Because I did.  All those things.

Being Different or Weird can happen in a whole variety of ways.  From how we look, to simple things about how we act, our personalities, it's just who we ARE.  Unless you were a huge fan of having it done to you, and think persecuting and demeaning people is upstanding and correct, then why on earth would you turn around and do it to others?  Do you really think that just because a girl has blue hair that she's a drugged up slut? 

Just going with the flow?  The choice of champions, right there!  Don't you see that 'the flow' is just one fucking hateful High School Jock point a finger, and everyone else being afraid that they're next, so they point too?
Even if you are 'normal' what if it were your very own daughter?  Your sister or little brother?  Do you think they deserve the judgement, wrath and scorn of the world at large, even though they have never been proven guilty of any wrongdoing at all?

It's bad enough to buy into that bullshit while someone is alive, feeding into a situation that can rob someone of their sanity, but to continue it or even ramp it up in the case of their demise?  Well aren't you just a really great person?

I've been called 'faggot' and 'stoner' and a million other names hundreds of thousands of times in my life, by hundreds of different people.  I've been called a lot worse.  I've had a lot worse done to me.  I've been in the grocery store shopping for food and had mothers actually put their hand over their childrens eyes when I walked past.  Instilling their judgemental evil in their spawn (ant ehey think that I am the monster in that situation?).  All because I was 'weird' or 'different'.  It has been enough people in my life to make a general concensus.  So does that make it true?  Am I those things because enough people believed it?  None of these accusations were ever proven.  But it didn't matter.  Sound familiar?  Which side of this cultural issue are you on anyhow?  Are you making it better or worse?  Are you taking a stance to debunk and improve it?

I think I have my line drawn firmly.  Just go ahead and get out of my life and don't wave goodbye if you're on the other side of it.  I do not need or want anything to do with you if you're one of them.

Also, Joseph McCarthy called.  He wanted to tell you that Goody Proctor is a witch!
But it's ok because Great American Hero, Cotton Mather is meeting you after tonights Football Game.  You can all head out and burn some crosses in weirdos lawns across the nation.

Or maybe if you want to really pretend to give a shit about things, why don't you instead harass people who have actually been PROVEN criminals.  People who are guilty of more than being Different.  People whom you can actually observe to do terrible things.  Trust me, there are plenty of people out there fitting the bill.  Maybe it's just easier to take the lowest denominator rather than stand up for justice, huh?  Because all this shit I am writing about?  You are no better than the 'God Hates Fags' people. 



And then there's you.  This whole thing... I've seen it my whole life, written about it before, but this time, it's for you.  Well...  You were a rare one.  Much like me, you simply were not from here.  You were also looking for Home.  You taught me something important.  Many many years ago.  I have never forgotten it.  You taught me that no amount of money can buy Home.  No amount of fame of 'mainstream success / acceptance' can earn you Home.  We'll always be Weird and Different.  We'll always be Searching.  You also taught me, through your errors, that maybe somehow, the answer can be found in Love.  In letting people inside, in spite of the pain and fear.  I think that's one thing you never managed to be able to do.  Thank you for sharing what you had with us while you could.

I'm sorry that the Witch Hunt made you crazy(/er).
I hope you're Home now.




poisonedgrace: (Default)
I don't remember what I was planning to write in here when I opened the window, but now I'm going to write about something messed up that just happened to me.

I was checking my email, on my yahoo mail that I always use.

I noticed a little window where it was like if you also have yahoo IM, it logs you into a little 'virtual Y.IM' thingy and gives you a little buddy list of who is online right there in your inbox.

I thought it was kinda cool.  Sent a message to test it and see how it worked, and it it had settings and options and stuff.

Thought it might be kinda nifty cause I do not have yahoo IM at work.

So while I still had the chat window thing open, I got an IM from my lifelong friend Joanne.
She asked me if I saw that recent Oprah episode on weight loss.  She said she had found the same 'goodies' they were talking about for only 5 dollars on some web site, and she provided a link.  She also told me that she had already lost NINE pounds.

I read it...  Read it again...  and thought to myself "She knows damned good and well that I have never, once in my life, seen a single episode of Oprah, and there is NO way she would ask me if I had."  Hell, I'd be shocked if she has seen more than a few episodes of Oprah herself.  I replied to the message saying something to that effect.

She didn't answer in like 30 seconds and I'm impatient, and I was suspicious by this time, so I texted her, asking her if she just sent me a message about Oprah etc.

She said no, she had no idea what I was talking about, probably assuming that I had finally gone over the edge.  I swear everyone who has known me for enough years is just waiting for the eventual Kaboom, baby.

I told her in detail what had happened, and it was the first she had heard about it.

So, I would guess it's one of only several possible options that I can think of..
1. Some spammers out there somewhere have a way of spoofing people's yahoo IDs and sending out messages.  Weather this only works on the virtual or on the real one as well, who knows.

2. Someone hacked her account and is making with the spam.

3. Yahoo themselves is trying out some REALLY fucking unethical (imo) business practices. 

If it's number 3, that's sooooo fucked up.  Fucking trying to sell me (didn't click the link, so I am assuming here) some sort of diet pills (those can be very dangerous) based on my belief that an actual friend uses, endorses them and thinks they might be right for me?  That's a hot mess right there.  Not only for that reason, but think of the drama it could potentially cause.

As a funny and silly example, what if I actually had a girlfriend, right? (I know, I know, you'll have to use a LOT of imagination to pull this one off, but I believe in you)  And what if Yahoo sends me a fake IM from her advertizing those fucking male enhancement pills I get constant spam email over?  Yeah, I might not feel too great about that, eh?  I might even get an attitude with her over thinking that she chose to address an issue like that in such a way.  Of course she'd deny doing it (and honestly so since she didn't DO it!) which could piss me off and cause a larger issue.

Now, of course, I'm too bright to fall into this above scenario, since I AM the Handsome Detective Hero in this tale.
But we all know some volitile ass people who think with their mouth first, and are slightly more than clueless about computer related shenanigans in addition to being dramatic and easilly butt-hurt over such 'sensitive' issues.

It really creeps me out if they're actually trying to use people's friends to sell them some spam bullshit.

She's going to change her password, just in case of number 2.

I found a way to sign completely out of that virtual IM thing, and I will not sign back in to it or allow it to be open.

If anyone gets some busted ass message from me, be aware that it wasn't me.  Unless it was.  But I won't try to sell you any pills or any Russian mail order brides or anything.

Speaking of those Russian mail order brides...
Maybe I should get me one of those.
;)
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I don't remember what I was planning to write in here when I opened the window, but now I'm going to write about something messed up that just happened to me.

I was checking my email, on my yahoo mail that I always use.

I noticed a little window where it was like if you also have yahoo IM, it logs you into a little 'virtual Y.IM' thingy and gives you a little buddy list of who is online right there in your inbox.

I thought it was kinda cool.  Sent a message to test it and see how it worked, and it it had settings and options and stuff.

Thought it might be kinda nifty cause I do not have yahoo IM at work.

So while I still had the chat window thing open, I got an IM from my lifelong friend Joanne.
She asked me if I saw that recent Oprah episode on weight loss.  She said she had found the same 'goodies' they were talking about for only 5 dollars on some web site, and she provided a link.  She also told me that she had already lost NINE pounds.

I read it...  Read it again...  and thought to myself "She knows damned good and well that I have never, once in my life, seen a single episode of Oprah, and there is NO way she would ask me if I had."  Hell, I'd be shocked if she has seen more than a few episodes of Oprah herself.  I replied to the message saying something to that effect.

She didn't answer in like 30 seconds and I'm impatient, and I was suspicious by this time, so I texted her, asking her if she just sent me a message about Oprah etc.

She said no, she had no idea what I was talking about, probably assuming that I had finally gone over the edge.  I swear everyone who has known me for enough years is just waiting for the eventual Kaboom, baby.

I told her in detail what had happened, and it was the first she had heard about it.

So, I would guess it's one of only several possible options that I can think of..
1. Some spammers out there somewhere have a way of spoofing people's yahoo IDs and sending out messages.  Weather this only works on the virtual or on the real one as well, who knows.

2. Someone hacked her account and is making with the spam.

3. Yahoo themselves is trying out some REALLY fucking unethical (imo) business practices. 

If it's number 3, that's sooooo fucked up.  Fucking trying to sell me (didn't click the link, so I am assuming here) some sort of diet pills (those can be very dangerous) based on my belief that an actual friend uses, endorses them and thinks they might be right for me?  That's a hot mess right there.  Not only for that reason, but think of the drama it could potentially cause.

As a funny and silly example, what if I actually had a girlfriend, right? (I know, I know, you'll have to use a LOT of imagination to pull this one off, but I believe in you)  And what if Yahoo sends me a fake IM from her advertizing those fucking male enhancement pills I get constant spam email over?  Yeah, I might not feel too great about that, eh?  I might even get an attitude with her over thinking that she chose to address an issue like that in such a way.  Of course she'd deny doing it (and honestly so since she didn't DO it!) which could piss me off and cause a larger issue.

Now, of course, I'm too bright to fall into this above scenario, since I AM the Handsome Detective Hero in this tale.
But we all know some volitile ass people who think with their mouth first, and are slightly more than clueless about computer related shenanigans in addition to being dramatic and easilly butt-hurt over such 'sensitive' issues.

It really creeps me out if they're actually trying to use people's friends to sell them some spam bullshit.

She's going to change her password, just in case of number 2.

I found a way to sign completely out of that virtual IM thing, and I will not sign back in to it or allow it to be open.

If anyone gets some busted ass message from me, be aware that it wasn't me.  Unless it was.  But I won't try to sell you any pills or any Russian mail order brides or anything.

Speaking of those Russian mail order brides...
Maybe I should get me one of those.
;)
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Today boys and girls, we're going to have an episode of The Musical Exchange Program!

PG's Top 13* Albums of All Time! (or at least this month!)
*because top 10 lists are boring

I present to you, in absolutely no particular order...  My take on 13 of the best albums of all time (or at least right now).
This is purely my opinion, which I belligerently stand by :P 
These may not be the best bands ever (but most of them are).  They're all but guaranteed to not be your favourites.  But that's the grand thing about opinions, ain't it?

My list would likely shift from one week to any other, but you're getting this freeze frame of it right now.
Maybe I should do this once a year (or something) and compare lists after a few.  Part of the criteria simply being that it's an album that I can, and often do listen to over and over and over...

Get your rotten fruit gathered up, you'll probably be throwing it at me soon.


The Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - Cthulhu Strikes Back
For a good number of years now, this has been my favourite band.
The only hard part was picking one album.  Some of the songs I like best aren't even on this album, but I had to pick based on the over all track listing, and if doing so, this is the one.  I know I said this list was in no particular order, but this may very well be the best album of all time.
"Summoned to kill
I ravaged landscapes
Tainted air and sea
A juggernaut of hunger
Shiny, oily,
That is me."

___

N.W.A. - Straight Outta Compton
This shit came out in 1988.
Fucking nineteen ninety eight.  Do you remember the shit that was popular in 1988?
This album kicked the teeth out of the music industry.  Love it or hate it, nothing was the same after this.  This album was made with a shoestring budget, but still sounds great over 20 years later.  A lot of people failed to see the humour that some of this subject matter was handled with.  These guys really knew what they were doing. 
"When I'm called off, I got a sawed off
Squeeze the trigger, and bodies are hauled off
You too, boy, if ya fuck with me
The police are gonna hafta come and get me
Off yo ass, that's how I'm goin out
For the punk motherfuckers that's showin out"

___

Bad Religion - Suffer
This shit ALSO came out in 1988!
Complete other end of the spectrum, but just as important.  This album has probably inspired the launch of literally hundreds of thousands of musicians, bands and songs.  Not bad for a band that was started by a buncha 17 year olds.  This album is amazing because it's just so angry, well written and... smart.  The lyrics on this album have sent countless people to the dictionary going 'WTF was that?!'
"I heard them say that the meek shall reign on earth
Phantasmal myriads of sane bucolic birth
I've seen the rapture in a starving baby's eyes
Inchoate beatitude, the Lord of the Flies"

___

The Cure - Pornography
Ahhh what a hotly debated subject!
All the way back to 1982.  Some of you weren't even alive back then!  This is my favourite Cure album.  This entire album is so lyrically awesome.  There's not really much I can say about it because everyone has a favourite Cure album and I'm not going to be able to convince anyone of anything.  There are songs I dearly love on many of their other albums, but weighing overall album content, this one has my vote.
"All shadows and deliverance
Under a black flag
A hundred years of blood
Crimson
The ribbon tightens round my throat
I open my mouth
And my head bursts open
A sound like a tiger thrashing in the water
Thrashing in the water
Over and over
We die one after the other
Over and over"

___

Silversun Pickups - Carnavas
You may notice this is the newest album on this list.
You may also notice that it is the only album on the list to have come out within the last 5 years.
That says something.  Mostly about how picky I am, but also about the modern state of music.  I am telling you that this album is one of the very best recordings I have ever heard in my life.  The first time I heard this one...  I think I listened to it about fourty times back to back, over days and days.  I can still put it on and listen to it on repeat for days.  It is simply THAT good.  There is so much going on with this band musically, I do not have the brain power to correctly describe it.  Everything is beautiful and layered and fucking mystical and perfect.  The way it builds and flows and falls...  It never stops amazing me.  They have a new album coming out this year and I am keeping my fingers crossed.  I can not encourage you enough to give this one a try.
"That's when it turned on me 
a  motorcade of 'meant to be's'
parade of beauty queens
where soft entwines make kindling
These many detailed things
like broken nails and plastic rings
will win by keeping me
from speaking to my new darling
And there's no way to know
our future foe scenarios
That's when it turned on me - 
on bobby pins held angel wings "

___

Marty Robbins - No. 1 Cowboy
I suppose coming from 1979, (with many of the songs dating back to the 50s) this is going to be the oldest entry in our list.
This is the greatest collection of oldschool country western / gunfighter songs ever.  One of only two solo artists making the cut, Mr. Robbins toyed with various kinds of music over his long carreer, as well as being an actor and a race-car driver.  In my opinion, the western and gunfighter ballads were truly his finest moments.  You can't go wrong with songs about shoot-outs, revenge, women who done you wrong, but you'd die for them anyhow.  Truly, some of the old western and bluegrass gun balad songs are the grandfathers of modern gangster rap :D  This is an album I have listened to my entire life, and I imagine I will continue to do so for whatever remains of the rest of my life.
"And he felt the bullet hit him hard
And before his eyes he saw
His wasted life pass quickly
Ending with this fatal draw."

___

R.E.M. - Fables of the Reconstruction
We'll have to start with the album title here.  It's also called Reconstruction of the Fables.  The album art was done in a way so that depending on which way you were holding it, it could go either way. or even more "Fables of the reconstruction of the fables"  or "Reconstruction of the fables of the reconstruction".  It could make all sorts of wonderful looping fun.  At this point we all should know how much I love words, word-play and the arrangement of words and letters to have more than one meaning, so immediately, you know I absolutely love the way it's set up. 
This was the hardest choice for me out of this entire list.  I'm not sure it's really their best album, honestly...  But it's a little *different* from all the other ones somehow.  My brain was telling me to pick either Murmer or Reckoning, but my gut was saying 'fables' .  'Gut, you're a goddamn moron,' Brain was saying, then they got to arguing and carrying on...  So anyhow, 'fables' won out.  This, however is the entry I am most torn over.  I know a R.E.M. album goes here, but I can't stop arguing with myself over which one.
"Somewhere near the end it said
'You can't do this'
I said, 'I can too'
Ships sway and rivers shift
Oceans fall and mountains drift
It's a Man Ray kind of sky
Let me show you what I can do with it"

___

Misfits - Famous Monsters
Let me start by saying: I am not a Misfits snob.
I don't care what the line-up is.  I don't care who is in the band, who is on what albums.  Historically, the band has delivered good, solid material.  In my opinion, the current touring lineup is the weakest one they've displayed so far.  Just sayin'.  Having said that, once you throw away politics, and look at entire albums, and factor in production value and recording quality...  Walk Among Us is by far the best of the albums from the 'old' Misfits, however, albums taken as a whole and going by how much I like most of the songs on there, Famous Monsters is a hands down winner for me.  I've seen several incarnations of 'The Misfits' live at this point, under various names, projects and array, and 95% of the time they just play all the same songs anyhow.  Over all, this was a really good lineup.  Everything that was pioneered conceptually by the original lineup was brought to perfection on this album.
"Cutting with the knife
Blood is spilling everywhere
She will be my wife
Secondary spine, incisions must be accurate
I know just what to do
My hands are trembling
I can't spare to slip up with this knife"

___

Sage Francis - Personal Journals
All things told, this could be the most important album on this list.
I feel sorry for people who refuse to try something new because they think they "don't like" an entire style of music.  You're missing some really great stuff people.  You have to understand parallels too.  Look at the trash that gets played on "rock stations".  Do you REALLY want fucking Nickelback and Staind to represent ALL of 'rock' to casual radio listeners who don't know any better?  Of course not, because those bands are complete trash, as are 90% of the bands played on the radio.  Well guess what, it's the exact same on rap and hip-hop stations.  The worse of the musical style rises to the top of the airwaves and that's all you ever hear as a casual listener.  Don't be so ignorant as to stop there and believe that it's all there is to it. There are good, bad, amazing and horrible performers and bands in ALL types and styles of music.

Mini music rant aside.  This man is a writer, a poet, and a genius.  Plain and simple.  He's also one of the nicest guys going, and has a killer bear hug.  He has puns, word-play, double (and triple) meaning, enough code and word placement / structure to make MY head spin, and I live for that stuff.  You get equal parts bravado, vulnerability, comedy, tragedy, pain and humour, but you're always guaranteed that it'll be delivered with razor-sharp wit.  I can never possibly say enough great things about this album.  It's another one of those that I've listened to thousands of times over the years, and never gotten tired of.  This is one of those artists I've been blabbering on about forever now, and spread to so many people...  Hopefully some of you who have not yet, will check this album out.
"Sun set and sun rise - I'm my own personal light show
Flipping switches, moving from basin bottoms to plateaus
The Earth manipulates itself beneath me
I stand still, stagnate. Can't kill... this lagged state
Life manipulates itself around me, but I'm dead-still
Upright but dead, still
Word is still born I will not stoop to the level of the stoop that y'all chill on
If the building's boarded up and the children of the corn-
-er Liquor Store don't want to kick it no more
'cause holes have filled the wall, sneakers are scuffed & toes have become sore
I saw y'all walk from the hood of tough luck
Yeah, if these walls could talk they wouldn't shut the fuck up"

___

Christian Death - Only Theatere of Pain
I'm loathe to link the wiki article here.  There is always drama surrounding this band.  So-and-so did such-and such.  It's one of those things where most likely everyone really feels like they're right from their own point of view, but since there can't be much of a problem anymore since there's no one left to legitimately fight over it, it's best to just let it all go.  This album is completely amazing.  It was released in 1982, and was quite different from what was going on around that time.  To say it was groundbreaking would be an understatement.  I think it even holds up among contemporary similar music quite well, nearly 30 years later. This album blazed trails and helped define entire new types of music.  This is one of those albums that I've been listening to for over half my life now, and I still love every note of it.  If you've never listened to this before, do yourself a favour and give it a try.
"I can die a thousand times, but I'll always be here
with the powder skull secrets of forgotten years
The hangmans noose is drenched with bloodstained tears
My hands are the killers that confirm my fears
Jesus wont you touch me, come into my heart
Where the Hell are you, when the fire starts?"

___

Minor Threat - Complete Discography
You might try to claim 'cheater' on me for going with the 'complete discography' but, hear me out.
It's what you can easily get on CD.  I'm not going to refference some old EP or tape from the early 80s that would only be of interest to a collector, and hard to find at that.  Years from now when the space archaeologists uncover our civilization, the 'complete' CD is what they'll find.  This is another band who set the standard and launched something larger than themselves.  Even if you've grown to hate where some of their ideas and terminilogy may have lead other people to end up, you have to respect the purity of it at the time.  It's a shame that over the past couple of decades if various boneheaded hate-mongers have belittled what they started.  This will always be one of those 'angry albums' that helps me get through a bad day.
"I don't want to hear it
All you do is talk about you
I don't want to hear it
Because I know that none of it's true
I don't want to hear it
Sick and tired of all your lies
I don't want to hear it
When are you gonna realize..."

___

The Postal Service - Give Up
The manner in which this album was crafted (recordings mailed back and forth with bits added in as it went on) perfectly matches it's calm and reflective nature.  There's nothing rushed or immediate about any of it.  It just ... is.  It exists in and of itself, a perfectly contained little universe of sounds.  It does what it likes without too much thought to trying for anything specific.  It's like that girl you know who always sort of rolls out of bed in sweats, wanders around in a fog and still manages to be witty, engaging, funny and awesome.  This is one of the rare albums that can feel sad when you're sad, hopeful when you are, lost along with you and bound for a precise destination when that's what is called for.  There's something to be said for that.
"I want so badly to believe that there is truth
That love is real
And I want life in every word to the extent
That it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years
But do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie
You tell yourself to help you get by"

___


Shonen Knife - Let's Knife
This may be one of the most infectious bands of all time. 
They can have the silliest half broken english half japanese lyrics about cookies, insects, cats and bicycles, and have you loving every moment of it.  They've been around forever, and lord knows I've seen them live spanning 10 years between shows, and they just never lose that passion and energy.  I simply can NOT be in a bad mood listening to these ladies.  I am telling you right now that everyone, young and old needs more Shonen Knife in their lives, and that's all there is to it.
"Sometime I step into timeless zone
and I lose my way
I don't know where I am.
Sometime I feel like I'm in the Milky Way
and I lose myself.
I don't know who I am!
I discover whiskers of a cat in a timeless zone
and I put them on my face.
In a moment I become a sweet little cat
And I dance on a flying saucer."
___

Well there you go... lucky 13.
I may do this again eventually as the 13 Best Ever changes into 13 other best evver ;)
That's if you guys liked it and may get some benefit or broadening of your horizons out of it.

<3



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Today boys and girls, we're going to have an episode of The Musical Exchange Program!

PG's Top 13* Albums of All Time! (or at least this month!)
*because top 10 lists are boring

I present to you, in absolutely no particular order...  My take on 13 of the best albums of all time (or at least right now).
This is purely my opinion, which I belligerently stand by :P 
These may not be the best bands ever (but most of them are).  They're all but guaranteed to not be your favourites.  But that's the grand thing about opinions, ain't it?

My list would likely shift from one week to any other, but you're getting this freeze frame of it right now.
Maybe I should do this once a year (or something) and compare lists after a few.  Part of the criteria simply being that it's an album that I can, and often do listen to over and over and over...

Get your rotten fruit gathered up, you'll probably be throwing it at me soon.


The Darkest of the Hillside Thickets - Cthulhu Strikes Back
For a good number of years now, this has been my favourite band.
The only hard part was picking one album.  Some of the songs I like best aren't even on this album, but I had to pick based on the over all track listing, and if doing so, this is the one.  I know I said this list was in no particular order, but this may very well be the best album of all time.
"Summoned to kill
I ravaged landscapes
Tainted air and sea
A juggernaut of hunger
Shiny, oily,
That is me."

___

N.W.A. - Straight Outta Compton
This shit came out in 1988.
Fucking nineteen ninety eight.  Do you remember the shit that was popular in 1988?
This album kicked the teeth out of the music industry.  Love it or hate it, nothing was the same after this.  This album was made with a shoestring budget, but still sounds great over 20 years later.  A lot of people failed to see the humour that some of this subject matter was handled with.  These guys really knew what they were doing. 
"When I'm called off, I got a sawed off
Squeeze the trigger, and bodies are hauled off
You too, boy, if ya fuck with me
The police are gonna hafta come and get me
Off yo ass, that's how I'm goin out
For the punk motherfuckers that's showin out"

___

Bad Religion - Suffer
This shit ALSO came out in 1988!
Complete other end of the spectrum, but just as important.  This album has probably inspired the launch of literally hundreds of thousands of musicians, bands and songs.  Not bad for a band that was started by a buncha 17 year olds.  This album is amazing because it's just so angry, well written and... smart.  The lyrics on this album have sent countless people to the dictionary going 'WTF was that?!'
"I heard them say that the meek shall reign on earth
Phantasmal myriads of sane bucolic birth
I've seen the rapture in a starving baby's eyes
Inchoate beatitude, the Lord of the Flies"

___

The Cure - Pornography
Ahhh what a hotly debated subject!
All the way back to 1982.  Some of you weren't even alive back then!  This is my favourite Cure album.  This entire album is so lyrically awesome.  There's not really much I can say about it because everyone has a favourite Cure album and I'm not going to be able to convince anyone of anything.  There are songs I dearly love on many of their other albums, but weighing overall album content, this one has my vote.
"All shadows and deliverance
Under a black flag
A hundred years of blood
Crimson
The ribbon tightens round my throat
I open my mouth
And my head bursts open
A sound like a tiger thrashing in the water
Thrashing in the water
Over and over
We die one after the other
Over and over"

___

Silversun Pickups - Carnavas
You may notice this is the newest album on this list.
You may also notice that it is the only album on the list to have come out within the last 5 years.
That says something.  Mostly about how picky I am, but also about the modern state of music.  I am telling you that this album is one of the very best recordings I have ever heard in my life.  The first time I heard this one...  I think I listened to it about fourty times back to back, over days and days.  I can still put it on and listen to it on repeat for days.  It is simply THAT good.  There is so much going on with this band musically, I do not have the brain power to correctly describe it.  Everything is beautiful and layered and fucking mystical and perfect.  The way it builds and flows and falls...  It never stops amazing me.  They have a new album coming out this year and I am keeping my fingers crossed.  I can not encourage you enough to give this one a try.
"That's when it turned on me 
a  motorcade of 'meant to be's'
parade of beauty queens
where soft entwines make kindling
These many detailed things
like broken nails and plastic rings
will win by keeping me
from speaking to my new darling
And there's no way to know
our future foe scenarios
That's when it turned on me - 
on bobby pins held angel wings "

___

Marty Robbins - No. 1 Cowboy
I suppose coming from 1979, (with many of the songs dating back to the 50s) this is going to be the oldest entry in our list.
This is the greatest collection of oldschool country western / gunfighter songs ever.  One of only two solo artists making the cut, Mr. Robbins toyed with various kinds of music over his long carreer, as well as being an actor and a race-car driver.  In my opinion, the western and gunfighter ballads were truly his finest moments.  You can't go wrong with songs about shoot-outs, revenge, women who done you wrong, but you'd die for them anyhow.  Truly, some of the old western and bluegrass gun balad songs are the grandfathers of modern gangster rap :D  This is an album I have listened to my entire life, and I imagine I will continue to do so for whatever remains of the rest of my life.
"And he felt the bullet hit him hard
And before his eyes he saw
His wasted life pass quickly
Ending with this fatal draw."

___

R.E.M. - Fables of the Reconstruction
We'll have to start with the album title here.  It's also called Reconstruction of the Fables.  The album art was done in a way so that depending on which way you were holding it, it could go either way. or even more "Fables of the reconstruction of the fables"  or "Reconstruction of the fables of the reconstruction".  It could make all sorts of wonderful looping fun.  At this point we all should know how much I love words, word-play and the arrangement of words and letters to have more than one meaning, so immediately, you know I absolutely love the way it's set up. 
This was the hardest choice for me out of this entire list.  I'm not sure it's really their best album, honestly...  But it's a little *different* from all the other ones somehow.  My brain was telling me to pick either Murmer or Reckoning, but my gut was saying 'fables' .  'Gut, you're a goddamn moron,' Brain was saying, then they got to arguing and carrying on...  So anyhow, 'fables' won out.  This, however is the entry I am most torn over.  I know a R.E.M. album goes here, but I can't stop arguing with myself over which one.
"Somewhere near the end it said
'You can't do this'
I said, 'I can too'
Ships sway and rivers shift
Oceans fall and mountains drift
It's a Man Ray kind of sky
Let me show you what I can do with it"

___

Misfits - Famous Monsters
Let me start by saying: I am not a Misfits snob.
I don't care what the line-up is.  I don't care who is in the band, who is on what albums.  Historically, the band has delivered good, solid material.  In my opinion, the current touring lineup is the weakest one they've displayed so far.  Just sayin'.  Having said that, once you throw away politics, and look at entire albums, and factor in production value and recording quality...  Walk Among Us is by far the best of the albums from the 'old' Misfits, however, albums taken as a whole and going by how much I like most of the songs on there, Famous Monsters is a hands down winner for me.  I've seen several incarnations of 'The Misfits' live at this point, under various names, projects and array, and 95% of the time they just play all the same songs anyhow.  Over all, this was a really good lineup.  Everything that was pioneered conceptually by the original lineup was brought to perfection on this album.
"Cutting with the knife
Blood is spilling everywhere
She will be my wife
Secondary spine, incisions must be accurate
I know just what to do
My hands are trembling
I can't spare to slip up with this knife"

___

Sage Francis - Personal Journals
All things told, this could be the most important album on this list.
I feel sorry for people who refuse to try something new because they think they "don't like" an entire style of music.  You're missing some really great stuff people.  You have to understand parallels too.  Look at the trash that gets played on "rock stations".  Do you REALLY want fucking Nickelback and Staind to represent ALL of 'rock' to casual radio listeners who don't know any better?  Of course not, because those bands are complete trash, as are 90% of the bands played on the radio.  Well guess what, it's the exact same on rap and hip-hop stations.  The worse of the musical style rises to the top of the airwaves and that's all you ever hear as a casual listener.  Don't be so ignorant as to stop there and believe that it's all there is to it. There are good, bad, amazing and horrible performers and bands in ALL types and styles of music.

Mini music rant aside.  This man is a writer, a poet, and a genius.  Plain and simple.  He's also one of the nicest guys going, and has a killer bear hug.  He has puns, word-play, double (and triple) meaning, enough code and word placement / structure to make MY head spin, and I live for that stuff.  You get equal parts bravado, vulnerability, comedy, tragedy, pain and humour, but you're always guaranteed that it'll be delivered with razor-sharp wit.  I can never possibly say enough great things about this album.  It's another one of those that I've listened to thousands of times over the years, and never gotten tired of.  This is one of those artists I've been blabbering on about forever now, and spread to so many people...  Hopefully some of you who have not yet, will check this album out.
"Sun set and sun rise - I'm my own personal light show
Flipping switches, moving from basin bottoms to plateaus
The Earth manipulates itself beneath me
I stand still, stagnate. Can't kill... this lagged state
Life manipulates itself around me, but I'm dead-still
Upright but dead, still
Word is still born I will not stoop to the level of the stoop that y'all chill on
If the building's boarded up and the children of the corn-
-er Liquor Store don't want to kick it no more
'cause holes have filled the wall, sneakers are scuffed & toes have become sore
I saw y'all walk from the hood of tough luck
Yeah, if these walls could talk they wouldn't shut the fuck up"

___

Christian Death - Only Theatere of Pain
I'm loathe to link the wiki article here.  There is always drama surrounding this band.  So-and-so did such-and such.  It's one of those things where most likely everyone really feels like they're right from their own point of view, but since there can't be much of a problem anymore since there's no one left to legitimately fight over it, it's best to just let it all go.  This album is completely amazing.  It was released in 1982, and was quite different from what was going on around that time.  To say it was groundbreaking would be an understatement.  I think it even holds up among contemporary similar music quite well, nearly 30 years later. This album blazed trails and helped define entire new types of music.  This is one of those albums that I've been listening to for over half my life now, and I still love every note of it.  If you've never listened to this before, do yourself a favour and give it a try.
"I can die a thousand times, but I'll always be here
with the powder skull secrets of forgotten years
The hangmans noose is drenched with bloodstained tears
My hands are the killers that confirm my fears
Jesus wont you touch me, come into my heart
Where the Hell are you, when the fire starts?"

___

Minor Threat - Complete Discography
You might try to claim 'cheater' on me for going with the 'complete discography' but, hear me out.
It's what you can easily get on CD.  I'm not going to refference some old EP or tape from the early 80s that would only be of interest to a collector, and hard to find at that.  Years from now when the space archaeologists uncover our civilization, the 'complete' CD is what they'll find.  This is another band who set the standard and launched something larger than themselves.  Even if you've grown to hate where some of their ideas and terminilogy may have lead other people to end up, you have to respect the purity of it at the time.  It's a shame that over the past couple of decades if various boneheaded hate-mongers have belittled what they started.  This will always be one of those 'angry albums' that helps me get through a bad day.
"I don't want to hear it
All you do is talk about you
I don't want to hear it
Because I know that none of it's true
I don't want to hear it
Sick and tired of all your lies
I don't want to hear it
When are you gonna realize..."

___

The Postal Service - Give Up
The manner in which this album was crafted (recordings mailed back and forth with bits added in as it went on) perfectly matches it's calm and reflective nature.  There's nothing rushed or immediate about any of it.  It just ... is.  It exists in and of itself, a perfectly contained little universe of sounds.  It does what it likes without too much thought to trying for anything specific.  It's like that girl you know who always sort of rolls out of bed in sweats, wanders around in a fog and still manages to be witty, engaging, funny and awesome.  This is one of the rare albums that can feel sad when you're sad, hopeful when you are, lost along with you and bound for a precise destination when that's what is called for.  There's something to be said for that.
"I want so badly to believe that there is truth
That love is real
And I want life in every word to the extent
That it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years
But do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie
You tell yourself to help you get by"

___


Shonen Knife - Let's Knife
This may be one of the most infectious bands of all time. 
They can have the silliest half broken english half japanese lyrics about cookies, insects, cats and bicycles, and have you loving every moment of it.  They've been around forever, and lord knows I've seen them live spanning 10 years between shows, and they just never lose that passion and energy.  I simply can NOT be in a bad mood listening to these ladies.  I am telling you right now that everyone, young and old needs more Shonen Knife in their lives, and that's all there is to it.
"Sometime I step into timeless zone
and I lose my way
I don't know where I am.
Sometime I feel like I'm in the Milky Way
and I lose myself.
I don't know who I am!
I discover whiskers of a cat in a timeless zone
and I put them on my face.
In a moment I become a sweet little cat
And I dance on a flying saucer."
___

Well there you go... lucky 13.
I may do this again eventually as the 13 Best Ever changes into 13 other best evver ;)
That's if you guys liked it and may get some benefit or broadening of your horizons out of it.

<3



Side note:

Feb. 3rd, 2009 07:39 am
poisonedgrace: (DESTROY!)


This is not today's blog.
This is just a memo from management, thanks.

I just LOVE the way that everyone keeps trivializing my surgery, as though they're some some sort of Doctor.
 
The ENT specialist who is performing my surgery says that once you get to be my age, and have had an ongoing infection in your tonsils for 22 years (yes, I shit you not, twenty-two years) that it is apparently fairly awful.

Now maybe the Jr League of Medical Enthusiasts knows more about it than he does...

And maybe he's just a douche and wants nothing more than to frighten me because if gives him a stiff cock he can go home and use on the wife, but chances are.... 

The ENT Doctor says that if you put the same surgery on a 12 year old kid, and they're up in a week.

Yet, he's expecting me to have 2 to 3 weeks of down time IF I am lucky, and guarantees me the "most painful experience" of my life.  Keeping that in context, I've been hospitalized for 3rd degree burns in my past medical history (along with several other fairly terrible situations for a shiny bonus round that we won't even go into right now), TYVM.

This guy has done this surgery a thousand times, is an ENT specialist and has been for YEARS.  He took one look in my throat and actually exclaimed "good god!"  Out loud.  Complete with the look of shock and everything.

I am REALLY thrilled that so many of you have had the procedure done yourselves, and even more thrilled that so many of you had it done when you were TWENTY YEARS younger than I am now.  Grats to you.  Good Fucking Game.  You can has medal.  Although you might knock it off while patting yourselves on the back so hard.

I understand that having an opinion about something you realistically know very little about (only one person on my friends list has been to medical school, to my knowledge) makes you an expert in the field...

But as far as your self righteous attitudes, well you can shove those right up your narrow minded phony medical proffesional opinionated little assholes.  Give them a good fucking twist and a gouge when you're half way in, just for good measure.

Perhaps I should drop some "Are you SERIOUS?  Isn't this over-reacting?!" on YOU skanky useless lot every time one of you starts whining and moaning about being "poor" or having "family issues", because I promise that 99% of you kiddies really have NO idea about how it can really be, and your paltry little suburban white-bread 'problems' are fairly fucking laughable when taken along side a slight glance at reality.

However I have more sense, compassion and class than that. 
Give it a try.




 

Side note:

Feb. 3rd, 2009 07:39 am
poisonedgrace: (DESTROY!)


This is not today's blog.
This is just a memo from management, thanks.

I just LOVE the way that everyone keeps trivializing my surgery, as though they're some some sort of Doctor.
 
The ENT specialist who is performing my surgery says that once you get to be my age, and have had an ongoing infection in your tonsils for 22 years (yes, I shit you not, twenty-two years) that it is apparently fairly awful.

Now maybe the Jr League of Medical Enthusiasts knows more about it than he does...

And maybe he's just a douche and wants nothing more than to frighten me because if gives him a stiff cock he can go home and use on the wife, but chances are.... 

The ENT Doctor says that if you put the same surgery on a 12 year old kid, and they're up in a week.

Yet, he's expecting me to have 2 to 3 weeks of down time IF I am lucky, and guarantees me the "most painful experience" of my life.  Keeping that in context, I've been hospitalized for 3rd degree burns in my past medical history (along with several other fairly terrible situations for a shiny bonus round that we won't even go into right now), TYVM.

This guy has done this surgery a thousand times, is an ENT specialist and has been for YEARS.  He took one look in my throat and actually exclaimed "good god!"  Out loud.  Complete with the look of shock and everything.

I am REALLY thrilled that so many of you have had the procedure done yourselves, and even more thrilled that so many of you had it done when you were TWENTY YEARS younger than I am now.  Grats to you.  Good Fucking Game.  You can has medal.  Although you might knock it off while patting yourselves on the back so hard.

I understand that having an opinion about something you realistically know very little about (only one person on my friends list has been to medical school, to my knowledge) makes you an expert in the field...

But as far as your self righteous attitudes, well you can shove those right up your narrow minded phony medical proffesional opinionated little assholes.  Give them a good fucking twist and a gouge when you're half way in, just for good measure.

Perhaps I should drop some "Are you SERIOUS?  Isn't this over-reacting?!" on YOU skanky useless lot every time one of you starts whining and moaning about being "poor" or having "family issues", because I promise that 99% of you kiddies really have NO idea about how it can really be, and your paltry little suburban white-bread 'problems' are fairly fucking laughable when taken along side a slight glance at reality.

However I have more sense, compassion and class than that. 
Give it a try.




 

Ugly as Sin

Jan. 2nd, 2009 09:45 am
poisonedgrace: (word)


          I've was thinking, idly over the last few days, but in a more specific way last night.  About 'Sin'.  It's usually scary enough when I've 'been thinking' but probably more-so when it's a topic such as this.  Now, the Good Book tells us that we have seven primary, or 'deadly' sins and ten commandments, and all sorts of other plagues and locusts and what-have-you.  In case you've been under a rock since the world was created six thousand years ago, the list of those sins reads as such: Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy, and Pride. 

These are not to be confused with the Ten Commandments, even though some of them overlap, and even though some of them contradict one another, and even though, God himself is clearly seen to break them on a regular basis.  But that's another story for another time, and if you've already swallowed the Sinai-de in the Flavor Aid  that Moses offered you then God help you, indeed.

But for today, we're not really talking about this in depth, just bringing up the concepts because they relate to what I really plan to talk about.  We supposedly have seven of these little buggers, but I think they're wrong. 

Lust:  Seriously?  A Sin?  If it's a sin, then you're doing it wrong.  Maybe this is something they added simply to give an added measure of guilt and a few more 'Hail Mary's to priests after they touch schoolboys.  Otherwise, I'm calling BS on Lust being a sin.  Rather, I say: yes, let's try that again, please.

Gluttony:  This one we're going to simply pass over because this is not a lecture on hypocrisy today.  I'll save that for another time.

Greed:  Holy shit, don't get me started!  See above, to the 9th power!

Sloth:  Trivia!  Sloth, back in the day of this original usage, didn't mean 'laziness'.  It's quite fine and not a sin at all to be lazy.  Sloth originally stood for 'sadness' or 'depression' .  True story, you can look it up.  So, kids!  Remember, it's a sin to not be happy!

Wrath:  This one's tough for me.  I'm a big fan of wrath.  After lust, it's probably my favourite.  Move along, folks, move along :P

Envy:  This is the newbie of the sins.  He wasn't on the list to start with, but he throws his weight around now.  It's funny, envy being a sin in a system where they're hell-bent on monogamy and possession and control of the female of the species.  Seems like all that nonsense would be rooted where, exactly?  Ahhhh!  Envy!  So, where I do rather see envy as a silly thing and something I would like to personally overcome, It seems a bit ...well, see the comment about hypocrisy, and I'll let it go for now.

Pride:  We're not talking Lions here folks, although, I really DO think Christianity needs to become more familiar with Lions again..  For some reason, Pride or Vanity is deemed THE worst of these sins.  Which is pretty funny, considering the multi million dollar churches I see daily, and the 'better than you' attitudes they contain.  You'd better scrape up a balance, suckers.  Don't have pride, but don't be down on yourself enough to slip into sloth!  Damned if you do, damned if you don't!  Literally!

Now that we've gotten the introductions out of the way, I can get on to what I actually came here to talk about today.
That, my friends, is


Complacency

To me, this is the largest sin in life.  To settle.  To give up.  To accept things as they are.  To just sit around and think 'this'll do' and wait 'till you die.  Fuck all kinds of that.  I'm with Chuck on this one "May I never be complete.  May I never be content.  May I never be perfect. "  Give me something to strive for.  I'm not saying I want things to be difficult or hard or bad.  Not that I want to suffer or be poor or have drama.  I am saying that no matter how wonderful and magical things are, I will always work for just a little bit more.  Always dream bigger.  Always reach for that star, for those planets in alignment on a four year horizon.  You can never have too much laughter and love and wonder. 

I do believe in perfection.  Hell, I've found it myself a time or two before.  I believe it's something you strive for and something you work to maintain.  I believe that complacency robs you of perfection.

I am replacing all your deadly sins.
I am replacing all your commandments.

Sin you not with Complacency, Hypocrisy, Racism, Oppression, Enslavement, Prejudice, or Stupidity

I say to you:
Thou Shalt Never be Complacent
Thou Shalt Not Deny Passion
Thou Shalt Dream
Thou Shalt Foster Hope
Thou Shalt Love With All Thy Heart 
Thou Shalt Create
Thou Shalt Follow Thy Whimsy
Thou Shalt  Be Just, Steadfast and True
Thou Shalt Have Compassion
Thou Shalt Be Mindful and Never Take Anything For Granted

Ugly as Sin

Jan. 2nd, 2009 09:45 am
poisonedgrace: (word)


          I've was thinking, idly over the last few days, but in a more specific way last night.  About 'Sin'.  It's usually scary enough when I've 'been thinking' but probably more-so when it's a topic such as this.  Now, the Good Book tells us that we have seven primary, or 'deadly' sins and ten commandments, and all sorts of other plagues and locusts and what-have-you.  In case you've been under a rock since the world was created six thousand years ago, the list of those sins reads as such: Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy, and Pride. 

These are not to be confused with the Ten Commandments, even though some of them overlap, and even though some of them contradict one another, and even though, God himself is clearly seen to break them on a regular basis.  But that's another story for another time, and if you've already swallowed the Sinai-de in the Flavor Aid  that Moses offered you then God help you, indeed.

But for today, we're not really talking about this in depth, just bringing up the concepts because they relate to what I really plan to talk about.  We supposedly have seven of these little buggers, but I think they're wrong. 

Lust:  Seriously?  A Sin?  If it's a sin, then you're doing it wrong.  Maybe this is something they added simply to give an added measure of guilt and a few more 'Hail Mary's to priests after they touch schoolboys.  Otherwise, I'm calling BS on Lust being a sin.  Rather, I say: yes, let's try that again, please.

Gluttony:  This one we're going to simply pass over because this is not a lecture on hypocrisy today.  I'll save that for another time.

Greed:  Holy shit, don't get me started!  See above, to the 9th power!

Sloth:  Trivia!  Sloth, back in the day of this original usage, didn't mean 'laziness'.  It's quite fine and not a sin at all to be lazy.  Sloth originally stood for 'sadness' or 'depression' .  True story, you can look it up.  So, kids!  Remember, it's a sin to not be happy!

Wrath:  This one's tough for me.  I'm a big fan of wrath.  After lust, it's probably my favourite.  Move along, folks, move along :P

Envy:  This is the newbie of the sins.  He wasn't on the list to start with, but he throws his weight around now.  It's funny, envy being a sin in a system where they're hell-bent on monogamy and possession and control of the female of the species.  Seems like all that nonsense would be rooted where, exactly?  Ahhhh!  Envy!  So, where I do rather see envy as a silly thing and something I would like to personally overcome, It seems a bit ...well, see the comment about hypocrisy, and I'll let it go for now.

Pride:  We're not talking Lions here folks, although, I really DO think Christianity needs to become more familiar with Lions again..  For some reason, Pride or Vanity is deemed THE worst of these sins.  Which is pretty funny, considering the multi million dollar churches I see daily, and the 'better than you' attitudes they contain.  You'd better scrape up a balance, suckers.  Don't have pride, but don't be down on yourself enough to slip into sloth!  Damned if you do, damned if you don't!  Literally!

Now that we've gotten the introductions out of the way, I can get on to what I actually came here to talk about today.
That, my friends, is


Complacency

To me, this is the largest sin in life.  To settle.  To give up.  To accept things as they are.  To just sit around and think 'this'll do' and wait 'till you die.  Fuck all kinds of that.  I'm with Chuck on this one "May I never be complete.  May I never be content.  May I never be perfect. "  Give me something to strive for.  I'm not saying I want things to be difficult or hard or bad.  Not that I want to suffer or be poor or have drama.  I am saying that no matter how wonderful and magical things are, I will always work for just a little bit more.  Always dream bigger.  Always reach for that star, for those planets in alignment on a four year horizon.  You can never have too much laughter and love and wonder. 

I do believe in perfection.  Hell, I've found it myself a time or two before.  I believe it's something you strive for and something you work to maintain.  I believe that complacency robs you of perfection.

I am replacing all your deadly sins.
I am replacing all your commandments.

Sin you not with Complacency, Hypocrisy, Racism, Oppression, Enslavement, Prejudice, or Stupidity

I say to you:
Thou Shalt Never be Complacent
Thou Shalt Not Deny Passion
Thou Shalt Dream
Thou Shalt Foster Hope
Thou Shalt Love With All Thy Heart 
Thou Shalt Create
Thou Shalt Follow Thy Whimsy
Thou Shalt  Be Just, Steadfast and True
Thou Shalt Have Compassion
Thou Shalt Be Mindful and Never Take Anything For Granted

poisonedgrace: (Default)

I recently posted about a body jewelry issue I was having and several of you suggested http://bodyartforms.com/

I gave it a try.

They have the best selection I have ever seen.  I found some things I wanted to try, so I placed an order.

When it came to shipping options, I noticed they had an option for "pick up at our shipping facility in Round Rock Texas"

I live only minutes from Round Rock, so I figured "sure, why not" since I am leaving town next Tuesday, and I knew the Thanksgiving Business would slow down the mail.  I really wanted to get my new stuff before I left.

I waited a while to give them ample time, then went by the address I had (after having to turn around twice because I fail at Round Rock.

I made it in finally.  There's no store of course, just a simple front room to a shipping facility.  Guy comes up when the bell rings, and gets me together with my stuff.

I will officially say that I will never again buy body jewelry anywhere else besides http://bodyartforms.com/

It is hands down the finest, friendliest, fastest place I have ever bought jewelry, and has the biggest selection I have ever seen, complete with customer reviews and customer pictures.

I can not reccomend this place highly enough, my entire transaction and experience with them was perfect in every way.

My ear is happier than it has ever been
<3

OK, I return you to your regularly scheduled programming :P
poisonedgrace: (Default)

I recently posted about a body jewelry issue I was having and several of you suggested http://bodyartforms.com/

I gave it a try.

They have the best selection I have ever seen.  I found some things I wanted to try, so I placed an order.

When it came to shipping options, I noticed they had an option for "pick up at our shipping facility in Round Rock Texas"

I live only minutes from Round Rock, so I figured "sure, why not" since I am leaving town next Tuesday, and I knew the Thanksgiving Business would slow down the mail.  I really wanted to get my new stuff before I left.

I waited a while to give them ample time, then went by the address I had (after having to turn around twice because I fail at Round Rock.

I made it in finally.  There's no store of course, just a simple front room to a shipping facility.  Guy comes up when the bell rings, and gets me together with my stuff.

I will officially say that I will never again buy body jewelry anywhere else besides http://bodyartforms.com/

It is hands down the finest, friendliest, fastest place I have ever bought jewelry, and has the biggest selection I have ever seen, complete with customer reviews and customer pictures.

I can not reccomend this place highly enough, my entire transaction and experience with them was perfect in every way.

My ear is happier than it has ever been
<3

OK, I return you to your regularly scheduled programming :P

simplicity

Sep. 2nd, 2008 02:04 pm
poisonedgrace: (red X)

I'm in a really good mood today :D

My left arm hurts though.  I have to continually streach it out because it gets stiff.  Working out FTW.  I like it though, it's a good hurt.  If that doesn't make sense to you, then I don't know what else to say.

Tuesday is Monday this week.
Work is work.
Art is art.
Games are games.
The usual.

......Only...  Nothing is.  Ever.  Usual I mean.  Life is perception and it's all just as usual or as remarkable as you let it be.  There is no absolute reality.  I can see that more clearly with each passing day.  It's a miraculous thing.  Stunningly simple and perfect.  Ringing like bells across the valley.

Cats are cats but they never are.
Valkyries cry from the east, eyes of flame, pillars of white marble.
The elements telling stories deep in a hidden fissure.
All of us, mousey and brown...
Until we're not.
Until we decide to bloom.

Decide.
Sooner is better than later.
It doesn't matter if you're any good at it or not.
The spirit of it all is what matters.

just... BE.

Lord of the Emerald Swamp
The Prince of  Monstrous Things

Just...
Fuckin' Goddamn, yanno?
Stop brushing your hair.
EVER.
Get tattoos.  Run amok.
Eat the dead!

Revel.

In your head:
It's so easy in this world to make other people what you want them to be.
Your saviour.  Your beloved.  Your destruction.  Scape goat.  The One.
Completely independant of what they tell you, ignoring their clear and exact warnings...

So... why not stop wasting time and make YOURSELF?



There's your inspirational message of the day.




simplicity

Sep. 2nd, 2008 02:04 pm
poisonedgrace: (red X)

I'm in a really good mood today :D

My left arm hurts though.  I have to continually streach it out because it gets stiff.  Working out FTW.  I like it though, it's a good hurt.  If that doesn't make sense to you, then I don't know what else to say.

Tuesday is Monday this week.
Work is work.
Art is art.
Games are games.
The usual.

......Only...  Nothing is.  Ever.  Usual I mean.  Life is perception and it's all just as usual or as remarkable as you let it be.  There is no absolute reality.  I can see that more clearly with each passing day.  It's a miraculous thing.  Stunningly simple and perfect.  Ringing like bells across the valley.

Cats are cats but they never are.
Valkyries cry from the east, eyes of flame, pillars of white marble.
The elements telling stories deep in a hidden fissure.
All of us, mousey and brown...
Until we're not.
Until we decide to bloom.

Decide.
Sooner is better than later.
It doesn't matter if you're any good at it or not.
The spirit of it all is what matters.

just... BE.

Lord of the Emerald Swamp
The Prince of  Monstrous Things

Just...
Fuckin' Goddamn, yanno?
Stop brushing your hair.
EVER.
Get tattoos.  Run amok.
Eat the dead!

Revel.

In your head:
It's so easy in this world to make other people what you want them to be.
Your saviour.  Your beloved.  Your destruction.  Scape goat.  The One.
Completely independant of what they tell you, ignoring their clear and exact warnings...

So... why not stop wasting time and make YOURSELF?



There's your inspirational message of the day.




poisonedgrace: (zoom in)

I've learned a lesson.

I'm not sure I'm in the mood to give any detailed or deep explanations of it right now, but it's sort of ... huge(?) for me.  I've been thinking about it for days now, and I'm wanting to make a note, even if I'm still not up for the novel just yet.

Self:

The Path is fluid.


thank you.


poisonedgrace: (zoom in)

I've learned a lesson.

I'm not sure I'm in the mood to give any detailed or deep explanations of it right now, but it's sort of ... huge(?) for me.  I've been thinking about it for days now, and I'm wanting to make a note, even if I'm still not up for the novel just yet.

Self:

The Path is fluid.


thank you.


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